Pumpkin, Hi, hun. I hope this isn't stupid but I miss you so much and I don't know hope they have internet access in Heaven so you can read our thoughts...it makes me feel like at some level I still have you in my life and can talk to you. The new year at work as been busy and I'm not sure. I have a family and I can talk to them but for the longest time you were the only person I had in my life...I'm so FREAKING lonely without you. I fell / have fallen off a cliff over the holidays and had a super hard time. To put it in perspective though, I know your sisters, mother and father had a harder time but WOW I'm glad that part of the season is over. I pray more than I used to and when I talk to god I think of you sitting there beside him listening...I always start with "Dear god and Uche"...not sure if I'm supposed to do that but figure you're up there anyways so it can't hurt. I love you, Nkem and miss you a _________ not even sure there is an adjective that works in this situation. Matt